I have this awful feeling that something HORRIBLY BAD is about to happen. I don’t know what, and I don’t know when, but I KNOW that it’s coming. I feel it in my chest. Something is crushing down on me. I can barely bring my chest up to breathe properly. I keep looking over my shoulder, waiting for it to come. I’m going to cry.
Damn, I’m so stupid. I know what this is. ANOTHER PANIC ATTACK. I guess I can try some breathing exercises or something from DBT. I was given “Distress Tolerance” handouts on Friday. I’ve been trying to use them.
This is building building building building. This will not have a good end. I need to stop this. I can’t continue. I wish God would just kill me. I sure don’t have the guts to do it myself.