I wish I wasn’t so sad. That word hardly seems to fit what I’m feeling. Wretched? Despondent? Forlorn? Those sound better. I just want to cry. I just want to sit down and cry. Really bawl my eyes out. I tried to the other day in the shower, but I couldn’t. I just couldn’t cry. It really seems that when I have the chance to cry, I can’t, but when it is a HORRIBLE time to let loose (like at work or while driving), that’s when the tears flow freely. I’m just so down. I feel so far down, I don’t know if I can pull myself back up. I don’t know how to anymore.
Deep, dark, black hole