I’ve been feeling slightly manic these past few days. Maybe more than slightly. Maybe mania isn’t even what I’m feeling. It’s never really been something I experienced. I was told at one point that I was bipolar, but this never made sense since I didn’t ever feel manic. Just utterly depressed. Since Tuesday afternoon I have been feeling very energetic. I have been excited and almost…happy? Is that what that feeling is? I’m not sure. I just feel like bouncing around. I want to jump up on my chair and spin around fast! I want to run back and forth throughout the office, waving my arms and omitting funny sounds while I make crazy faces. I feel like I have limitless energy. I am doing a million things right now at work. I am multi-tasking my ass off!! I can’t believe all the things I’m getting done while still working nonstop on this specific project I’ve had since Monday. My driving has also gotten a little more aggressive in the past couple days. Driving fast. Going from lane to lane. I tell myself I’m just driving like everyone else. Maybe, but maybe not.
Anyway, I am a little concerned, just like I am every time my mood takes such a drastic, unexpected, and unfamiliar change. I am leaving for a therapy session in a few minutes. I guess this will be fodder for conversation.