Crazy Jay and I got into it a little last night. Overreaction on his part led to overreaction on my part until it was a much bigger mess than it needed to be. I’m trying not to be upset at myself over my part in the fight and continued escalation. The situation is passed, so there is no sense in me brooding over it all day, and making myself feel worse. I have assessed the situation, and decided what I need to do differently in the future. I am not beating myself up, but finding a lesson in this experience.
I have been feeling a little down today because of last night, and then having no contact with Jay this morning. I wrote down my affirmation of the day on a sticky note and placed it on my desk. Every time I want to feel sorry for myself, or angry at Crazy Jay, or angry at MYSELF, I repeat the affirmation at least once.
“I am the only power in my world, and I create a peaceful, loving, joyful, fulfilling life.”
No matter what happens, no matter who says or does what to me, I am the one who decides how I feel, and what I want to focus on. I do not want a sub par day, thinking about the fight from the night before. This is the only moment I can live in, and I choose to make it wonderful.